{"id":1001,"date":"2010-01-30T09:26:35","date_gmt":"2010-01-30T17:26:35","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/?p=1001"},"modified":"2010-01-30T09:26:35","modified_gmt":"2010-01-30T17:26:35","slug":"ponder","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/2010\/01\/30\/ponder\/","title":{"rendered":"ponder"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Waiting for development to send me some sql statements to tune up the demo environment for engage this week. I chuckled remembering M&#8217;s complaint about how I thought about <a href=\"http:\/\/www.xkcd.com\/69\/\">truck axles<\/a>\u00a0when\u00a0 I should have, presumbly, been thinking about more meaningful bits. I&#8217;m pretty sure I&#8217;ve always had the thinking too much covered, actually.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;ve been thinking about M rarely talking about his first wife, about having strong feelings for someone not being enough to make it work, about finding a relationship that you can make <a href=\"http:\/\/www.xkcd.com\/76\/\">work<\/a>. Someone (J?) was talking with me a while back about often falling for people who were not emotionally available. I&#8217;ve had enough strife due to the emotionally unavailable that I&#8217;m much better at accepting my losses.<\/p>\n<p>Maybe it&#8217;s time to count more of my blessings. Maybe that&#8217;s what I&#8217;m doing right now.<\/p>\n<p>Carefully.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Waiting for development to send me some sql statements to tune up the demo environment for engage this week. I chuckled remembering M&#8217;s complaint about how I thought about truck axles\u00a0when\u00a0 I should have, presumbly, been thinking about more meaningful bits. I&#8217;m pretty sure I&#8217;ve always had the thinking too much covered, actually. I&#8217;ve been [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1001"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1001"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1001\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1002,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1001\/revisions\/1002"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1001"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1001"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1001"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}