{"id":1062,"date":"2010-03-10T00:02:08","date_gmt":"2010-03-10T08:02:08","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/?p=1062"},"modified":"2010-03-10T00:02:08","modified_gmt":"2010-03-10T08:02:08","slug":"oh-fucking-crap-already","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/2010\/03\/10\/oh-fucking-crap-already\/","title":{"rendered":"oh fucking crap already"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>When I think about <em>the three types of knowledge<\/em>, I think about my indifference to get worked up by things I can&#8217;t really change, that I feel like I&#8217;m suppose to be upset about. But then there&#8217;s those things that do evoke feeling, like M, that I wonder if I&#8217;ll ever find a place to set down. As I step back and question my own mental and emotional sanity, I can&#8217;t help but feel alone, sad, and disappointed in others.<\/p>\n<p>When you can&#8217;t sit still any longer, and feel like change is needed; how much of it is the distraction of something new overtaking dealing with the present?<\/p>\n<p>M&#8217;s inability to cope with her emotions evoked by the presence of mine continues to be at the forefront of my thoughts. J and I seem to agree that she doesn&#8217;t have the tools needed because she refuses to prioritize her feelings, likely out of fear. And yet, no logic or explanation I can garner changes how I feel. Under the circumstances, I very much wish it would.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>When I think about the three types of knowledge, I think about my indifference to get worked up by things I can&#8217;t really change, that I feel like I&#8217;m suppose to be upset about. But then there&#8217;s those things that do evoke feeling, like M, that I wonder if I&#8217;ll ever find a place to [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1062"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1062"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1062\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1063,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1062\/revisions\/1063"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1062"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1062"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1062"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}