{"id":1101,"date":"2010-04-06T03:20:03","date_gmt":"2010-04-06T11:20:03","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/?p=1101"},"modified":"2010-04-06T03:20:03","modified_gmt":"2010-04-06T11:20:03","slug":"greek","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/2010\/04\/06\/greek\/","title":{"rendered":"greek"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>A and I sat in her car in the rain, talking about volunteering and working in emergency and disaster services, pondering plans for the future, the flux between joining up and running off. I talked about my feeling that some day someone will convey to me that I&#8217;ve done enough, and I&#8217;ll finally slow down and find myself a porch. She hoped not.<\/p>\n<p>I just made my first pot of coffee for the night. An optimistically small one. I&#8217;m on plan &#8216;c&#8217; of rebuilding a Microsoft Exchange infrastructure before the sun rises. In the interim, OKCupid and I are pondering the uniqueness of people, while I uninstall many years worth of java updates from this workstation.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;ll be in Maine in less than a month; I thought it was more like two. I&#8217;ll be there for a shorter period than I planned on, but this has been such a busy quarter at work. Maybe I&#8217;ll go back after the next deployment, after July. I can&#8217;t tell you exactly why getting through July is my goal, but I&#8217;ve already spoken about enough bits that make sense to hold it up against too much inspection. As I nudge servers along, solving one little issue at a time, drinking coffee to keep me nudged along, I&#8217;m listening to Sarah McLachlan, which makes me reminisce of Surry and my father.<\/p>\n<p>I was waiting outside the building for A, and I picked up a WSJ lying in front of the bank. I noticed <a href=\"http:\/\/online.wsj.com\/article\/SB10001424052748704207504575130171387740744.html?mod=WSJ_hpp_sections_news\">this article.<\/a><\/p>\n<blockquote><p>The family income of the Johnsons is a fifth of what it used to be. And the children are about to feel the pain. Mr. Johnson&#8217;s two oldest are attending his alma mater, Johns Hopkins University, at an annual cost of $50,000 apiece. And his youngest daughter, 15 years old, recently began her own college search. Mr. Johnson isn&#8217;t sure whether he&#8217;ll be able to help her to go to college, or even to get the older kids to graduation.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<blockquote><p>Further expenses such as first homes and weddings are out of the question. &#8220;They&#8217;re going to have to elope,&#8221; he says. <\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p>Really? This is the upper-middle class struggle? I always assumed I grew up in an upper-middle class family, but let me tell you, my &#8220;college savings&#8221; weren&#8217;t anything near $50,000, let alone for four years. I think I spent most of them on flight training for my private pilots license (which I still need to finish) anyway. Maybe it&#8217;s my bias against the path of school, school, school, college, maybe more college, (* change the world), job, marriage, house, kids&#8230; my sarcasm recently engaged a facebook thread about this that was apparently only funny to me&#8230; but, hey, crap-tastic entitlement. Yeah yeah, I know, I&#8217;m lucky, most people can&#8217;t get jobs without college degrees, but I&#8217;m still unconvinced that if they had started working as young as I had and worked as hard as I have, they wouldn&#8217;t have had more to show for it. I&#8217;m fairly certain I&#8217;ve been making more money the last couple of years than my father ever did. A asked me what class I thought I belonged to, and I realized had never stopped to consider these matters. I&#8217;m not against college, if that isn&#8217;t obvious. I just sense something really wrong in the way we&#8217;re finding out what to do with our lives, and the money we spend in between.<\/p>\n<p>Anyhow, *grumble*. <\/p>\n<p>Sometimes I wonder if I can leverage reminding myself that which emotionally upsets me now, won&#8217;t in five years, since the good things don&#8217;t really feel like I pendulum quite so far that way as well. But then there&#8217;s me, bouncing up and down on my touring bike last Sunday purely at the thought of fries. Is that happy? Silly? Crazy? Oh, bother.<\/p>\n<p>Oh, exhausted.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>A and I sat in her car in the rain, talking about volunteering and working in emergency and disaster services, pondering plans for the future, the flux between joining up and running off. 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