{"id":1228,"date":"2010-07-02T07:46:55","date_gmt":"2010-07-02T15:46:55","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/?p=1228"},"modified":"2010-07-02T07:46:55","modified_gmt":"2010-07-02T15:46:55","slug":"getting-up","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/2010\/07\/02\/getting-up\/","title":{"rendered":"getting up"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Not that I don&#8217;t have books to read, but I noticed a Primo Levi book on the bookcase the other day, and having seen the name in <em>Hindsight<\/em>, picked it up.<\/p>\n<blockquote><p>The conviction that life has a purpose is rooted in every fibre of man, it is a property of the human substance. Free men give many names to this purpose and think and talk a lot about its nature. But for us the question is simpler.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p>Yesterday. A good rest, with a good full day at work. Then an hour or two up on Beacon hill watering the garden and I biked down to GLC for dinner. As I was doting about at home, tending to the chickens, preparing for today, they giddily told me about something silly they had done. I was tired and focused on remembering what needed to be done that evening.<\/p>\n<p>The other night Colin and I went to a party at a friends. The majority of the attendance consisted of trashed parents with their children running around, and a minority of bike mechanics and other bikey people.<\/p>\n<p>I awoke this morning thinking about being an adult. About ball pits (xkcd) and careers. I often feel unable to reconcile my lives, my social circles. Perhaps this is normal.<\/p>\n<p>Awake at 6am, I cleaned and made breakfast. I crossed a bit off my TODO list and napped again for a half hour. A big day ahead. Who to share this with? Even the closest feel at arms length. This is possibly, bizarrely, my doing. Also, I still cannot comprehend the power that M&#8217;s name has over my emotions, so often on the edge of my mind and the tip of my tongue. I feel this continues to push me away from other people as well.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Not that I don&#8217;t have books to read, but I noticed a Primo Levi book on the bookcase the other day, and having seen the name in Hindsight, picked it up. The conviction that life has a purpose is rooted in every fibre of man, it is a property of the human substance. Free men [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1228"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1228"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1228\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1229,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1228\/revisions\/1229"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1228"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1228"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1228"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}