{"id":1260,"date":"2010-07-19T21:13:36","date_gmt":"2010-07-20T05:13:36","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/?p=1260"},"modified":"2010-07-19T21:13:36","modified_gmt":"2010-07-20T05:13:36","slug":"running-on-empty","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/2010\/07\/19\/running-on-empty\/","title":{"rendered":"running on empty"},"content":{"rendered":"

I’m great at recognizing the physical and emotional tells that I’m tired these days. Talking on the phone to a friend today I said that I should probably go because I just recently left my therapists office and I was in quite the telling mood. As we talked about dating I started chattering about past flames and then, really cut myself off, until another day.<\/p>\n

I’m really into Megan Myers<\/a>. I’m into more art lately. That’s weird. Anyway, I saw some of Megan’s work at Katy’s Cafe in the CD the other day, and there’s some that I want to buy. Really though, I want to commission something, but I distrustful of my heart. That which is meaningful, the memories I want to draw upon, are inappropriate now in that “should move on” sort of way.<\/p>\n

I spent some time talking to J today about M, how I had been putting her in the past by reminding myself of how a lack of time wasn’t true, evidenced by her continuing to date others, and that I’d told myself that she didn’t really like me that much. J questioned me if I really believed that, because she didn’t. I squeamishly admitted I didn’t with an embarrassed smile, but explained that I didn’t really have any other course of action. What’s done is done, and what could be said has been. Life is different now, even if my feelings, ultimately, aren’t.<\/p>\n

See? I’m saying too much again.<\/p>\n

To PDX tomorrow for the rest of the week. Next week, the end of July. Everything happens next week. July, you’ve been foretold of.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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