Can I summarize all of one nights thoughts? Not really, too tired. It is a good tired though. So many friends seen tonight. The sweetness of the drunken ones was great and wonderful. Seattle has been good to me.<\/p>\n
I talked to K briefly, limited by the loudness of cakearokee, about lunch with Eric. I spoke of the uniqueness of seeing this caring human again after years apart and being grateful for his comments about how I’ve grown.<\/p>\n
Scott showed up at the end of the night and asked about how the ladies were. Scott and I have meaningful conversations about that, but I giggle a little about how asking about my love life feels like talking about the weather sometimes. It has been over a month now since K broke up with me. I haven’t dated during that time and I’m not particularly motivated to either. Perhaps it is because we dated for four months, and I had made that willful decision to commit to working on that relationship and seeing where it went. J had made the point that if I was still in love with M there wasn’t room for anyone else. I did commit to trying, and I did try. I told M I wasn’t pessimistic about dating so much as tired. I told Scott tonight that I’ve just been doing other things. M mentioned the virtue of patience, and I guess I’m being patient, because I’m not pessimistic, nor am I indifferent, dating just isn’t a priority for my energy right now. Someone could change that, I’m sure, but I’m without the energy to devote to leading without something to go on.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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