{"id":333,"date":"2009-05-02T07:04:56","date_gmt":"2009-05-02T15:04:56","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/?p=333"},"modified":"2009-05-02T07:04:56","modified_gmt":"2009-05-02T15:04:56","slug":"it-puts-the-coffee-in-the-pot","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/2009\/05\/02\/it-puts-the-coffee-in-the-pot\/","title":{"rendered":"it puts the coffee in the pot"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Eeek. So much raw unbridled emotion. I finally got enough out last night to fall asleep, but I don&#8217;t think it did anyone any good other than getting me to sleep. I suppose it&#8217;s something I can go back to read and assess when I&#8217;m feeling better. Heh, &#8220;feeling better&#8221;, oh the irony. Sometimes, I wonder if I should talk at all, because I feel like I&#8217;m not understood. Then, I&#8217;m staring at the coffee pot, not understanding what I&#8217;m forgetting, and I think about how unfortunate understanding is, and how easily we get it wrong.<\/p>\n<p>And in a surge of empathy for everyone I&#8217;ve ever dated, I&#8217;m lying in my bed crying at 8am. Last night when I woke up my mother she made a comment about my feeling helpless and that I still got to decide what actions I take with my emotions. Well, I&#8217;m not doing anyone any good, including myself. Back to self introspection I suppose. It still feels like such a waste regardless of the reality of it being appropriate or not. I want to hug my father. I want to tell everyone else that it will be okay.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Eeek. So much raw unbridled emotion. I finally got enough out last night to fall asleep, but I don&#8217;t think it did anyone any good other than getting me to sleep. I suppose it&#8217;s something I can go back to read and assess when I&#8217;m feeling better. Heh, &#8220;feeling better&#8221;, oh the irony. Sometimes, I [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/333"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=333"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/333\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":334,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/333\/revisions\/334"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=333"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=333"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=333"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}