{"id":364,"date":"2009-05-08T00:19:03","date_gmt":"2009-05-08T08:19:03","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/?p=364"},"modified":"2009-05-08T00:19:03","modified_gmt":"2009-05-08T08:19:03","slug":"chisel-off-the-rough-edges","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/2009\/05\/08\/chisel-off-the-rough-edges\/","title":{"rendered":"chisel off the rough edges"},"content":{"rendered":"<blockquote><p>Though I really do feel for you, because I know your heart is huge and being a person of that type always makes it a heavier burden when you&#8217;re unlucky in love<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p>Lots of talk about my heart. I realize more taking ownership of my feelings, and them being mine. I&#8217;m less interested in sharing them, or broadcasting them perhaps. My thought goes into motivation. It&#8217;s possible to overthink all of this, so it&#8217;s still important to let my heart drive. But it&#8217;s sad. Standing outside the movie theater I wrapped my arms around the banister at the edge of the balcony as the fear of throwing myself off takes it&#8217;s usual hold. Only now, it&#8217;s sad.<\/p>\n<p>Doors that were flung open are slowly being sealed back shut again. Along the way, I&#8217;ve gotten to see a little bit more of what&#8217;s inside them. It&#8217;s difficult remembering, because it makes me sad, but I have to live with that sadness. I&#8217;m not really in a position to walk away right now, so I get up and do what has to be done. Oh, hello Father.<\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s ____ how we justify reality, rationalize what happens to use, and explain it all away. I&#8217;m not very interested in any of it anymore.<\/p>\n<p>And so it goes, a special room in my heart carved out. On my 27th birthday, more than ever, I&#8217;m not the person I was a year ago, and I could never go back.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Though I really do feel for you, because I know your heart is huge and being a person of that type always makes it a heavier burden when you&#8217;re unlucky in love Lots of talk about my heart. I realize more taking ownership of my feelings, and them being mine. I&#8217;m less interested in sharing [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/364"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=364"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/364\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":365,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/364\/revisions\/365"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=364"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=364"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=364"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}