{"id":638,"date":"2009-08-08T17:15:16","date_gmt":"2009-08-09T01:15:16","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/?p=638"},"modified":"2009-08-08T17:15:17","modified_gmt":"2009-08-09T01:15:17","slug":"love-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/2009\/08\/08\/love-2\/","title":{"rendered":"love"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Randomly caught <a href=\"http:\/\/www.imdb.com\/title\/tt1331064\/\">Paper Heart<\/a> today with Mom. It was really great and fit the day perfectly. Must see for members of the big hearts with feelings club.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;ve only got some <a href=\"http:\/\/www.flickr.com\/photos\/btmspox\/3801883261\/\">mid construction photos<\/a> of the couch bike that Divide and I build for the DBD. <a href=\"http:\/\/www.flickr.com\/photos\/divide\">Divide<\/a> should have some photos from the DB party eventually.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m unhappy about sleeping alone lately, which is probably mostly loneliness when I&#8217;m sitting still too long. As much as I&#8217;ve identified and internalized more emotions, that doesn&#8217;t change how I feel, only how I act because of it. I still feel discarded and unwanted and I have to be okay with that. My mind tempts to &#8220;keep doing what needs to be done&#8221;, but I walk down the stairs and see the old photo of my father, an intentional reminder to not accept life as a treadmill. And I remember that my feelings are natural and perfectly okay. I remind myself that my feelings are good, and that they and my efforts are probably under-appreciated.<\/p>\n<p>I have great fear of the relationship between distance and limerance. Buy me a drink and I&#8217;ll share that with you.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Randomly caught Paper Heart today with Mom. It was really great and fit the day perfectly. Must see for members of the big hearts with feelings club. I&#8217;ve only got some mid construction photos of the couch bike that Divide and I build for the DBD. Divide should have some photos from the DB party [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/638"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=638"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/638\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":639,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/638\/revisions\/639"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=638"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=638"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=638"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}