{"id":65,"date":"2007-12-27T02:40:47","date_gmt":"2007-12-27T10:40:47","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/?p=65"},"modified":"2007-12-27T02:40:47","modified_gmt":"2007-12-27T10:40:47","slug":"figure-it-out","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/2007\/12\/27\/figure-it-out\/","title":{"rendered":"figure it out"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>It&#8217;s wholly frustrating that it seems like the more I figure out about myself, and the more I figure out about other people, how useless it seems to be. Old school get together in Maine was fun. I did my best to avoid all the stories of who was mad with over this guy or that girl and who isn&#8217;t making the effort in friendships anymore. Definiately the more I feel like I&#8217;m acting against my inhibitions on my feelings, the more I find myself feeling outside on these situations looking in, like I&#8217;m somehow destined to always been an observer.<\/p>\n<p>I know I can just move on. I&#8217;ve left plenty behind in the past that seemed worthwhile at the time to start over. I suppose it just may come to that again, as I&#8217;m constantly stuck in this zone of being felt sorry for. It&#8217;s probably that time again, it&#8217;s just sad, and in the interim, makes it hard to sleep.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>It&#8217;s wholly frustrating that it seems like the more I figure out about myself, and the more I figure out about other people, how useless it seems to be. Old school get together in Maine was fun. I did my best to avoid all the stories of who was mad with over this guy or [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/65"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=65"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/65\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=65"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=65"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=65"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}