{"id":79,"date":"2008-01-16T05:24:00","date_gmt":"2008-01-16T13:24:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/?p=79"},"modified":"2008-01-16T05:24:00","modified_gmt":"2008-01-16T13:24:00","slug":"romanticism","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/2008\/01\/16\/romanticism\/","title":{"rendered":"romanticism"},"content":{"rendered":"

so I’m lying in bed thinking<\/a> (i think that’s a sign i should go to work and use my thinking for something constructive like scripting server deployments) about romanticism<\/a>.<\/p>\n

I had this sort of life altering conversation once with my father. We talk<\/a> a lot, twice every week, but rarely about much substantial<\/a>. Usually it’s just about the weather<\/a>.. seriously. I was telling him once that he should catch a certain movie and he told me that he doesn’t like<\/a> watching movies anymore because they’re all written to play on your emotions and they make him too emotional.<\/p>\n

No shit? I fucking cry during cute previews<\/a>.<\/p>\n

But so movies<\/a> have this “and they lived happily ever after” bullshit<\/a> which is totally somehow the goal of romanticism even though we all know better. It’s sort of like watching a movie,<\/a> or even better like watching 24, and the people never eat<\/a> or sleep or go to the bathroom. When you do those things every day, you realize<\/a> that they’re not doing them in this surreal drama<\/a>.<\/p>\n

But what about other hardships like being heartbroken<\/a>? Nine times out of ten that’s the climax of the movie and then everything works out and they lived happily ever after. Again, they were HAPPY<\/a> FOREVER. Bah, if thinking about this shit doesn’t make a pessimist, there’s probably hope for me yet<\/a>.<\/p>\n

I’m pondering my happily ever after<\/a>, but I know I live in reality<\/a> so I’m also pondering when I should give up<\/a> on it and try to bury those feelings and desires under some kind of molten lava, or at least reason my way out<\/a> of them with some logic<\/a> like “it’d never work out” or whatever shit people try convince you with.<\/p>\n

That’s it<\/a>, I’m<\/a> going to work<\/a>.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

so I’m lying in bed thinking (i think that’s a sign i should go to work and use my thinking for something constructive like scripting server deployments) about romanticism. I had this sort of life altering conversation once with my father. We talk a lot, twice every week, but rarely about much substantial. Usually it’s […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/79"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=79"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/79\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=79"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=79"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=79"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}