Okay. It’s the first of a new month. Three weeks ago on a Monday I said “Okay heart, fuck you, this week is going to belong to me.” Let’s see if I can make another run at that, since I failed pretty miserably at not falling in love with anyone in October. Interestingly, I have some past and present fronts presenting that I should totally keep my feelings to myself because they really don’t do those people any good, and other people present in my life still maintaining that I should be totally open with them and that they value the opportunity to keep that space for me. Which is totally admirable, considering, but I’m having a really hard time sifting through my emotions deciding if, in the long run, I’ll have a relationship with the desire and emotional fortitude to reciprocate my openness, or if I should learn to live with that not being a possibility.<\/p>\n
Or maybe I’ll just cook<\/a> some wealth<\/a>, and forget all the girls that made me happy for a while.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Okay. It’s the first of a new month. Three weeks ago on a Monday I said “Okay heart, fuck you, this week is going to belong to me.” Let’s see if I can make another run at that, since I failed pretty miserably at not falling in love with anyone in October. Interestingly, I have […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/822"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=822"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/822\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":824,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/822\/revisions\/824"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=822"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=822"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=822"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}