Sleep? I think I need to make another effort to return to a only couple cups of coffee a day, and in the morning. This is why we don’t do drugs kids, they’re habit forming. T told me something about _ that made me respond with “All the same, the thought of that connection makes me want to die.” physically tired but I was emotionally defeated. I had a nightmare about wandering all over a large apartment with multiple roommates avoiding _, only to still be hurt by her being with another, and then being tormented by being unable to find the layers I had shed everywhere so I could leave. I wouldn’t say I’m feeling more defeated than I was an hour ago. I think I’m behind on honest rest being out late the last couple nights with J. But I feel incredibly sad.<\/p>\n
Somewhere I found a recent Op-ed piece, Cellphones, Texts and Lovers<\/a>, which lead to A Critical (But Highly Sympathetic) Reading of New Yorkers\u2019 Sexual Habits and Anxieties<\/a>. The second is longer an better, I think the first was catalyzed by it. I could quote all of these articles, and so many parts reminded me of people, some of whom I sent it to directly to read. I don’t have it in me to go through and read it again right now. I could quote huge swaths, but I’ll just give you the part that hit deep and reminded me of _.<\/p>\n they all agree on how you lose: by betraying a level of emotional enthusiasm unmatched by the other party<\/p><\/blockquote>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Sleep? I think I need to make another effort to return to a only couple cups of coffee a day, and in the morning. This is why we don’t do drugs kids, they’re habit forming. T told me something about _ that made me respond with “All the same, the thought of that connection makes […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/836"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=836"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/836\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":837,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/836\/revisions\/837"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=836"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=836"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=836"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}