{"id":952,"date":"2010-01-12T00:05:14","date_gmt":"2010-01-12T08:05:14","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/?p=952"},"modified":"2010-01-12T00:05:14","modified_gmt":"2010-01-12T08:05:14","slug":"crusher","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/2010\/01\/12\/crusher\/","title":{"rendered":"crusher"},"content":{"rendered":"

happy new yrs from your long distance crush (wait, crusher?)<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

G! I’m so excited to hear from her tonight, even though I’m about 10 days behind the mail. G was responsible for turning me on to the concept of limerance<\/a> six months ago, which lead to buying Love and Limerance<\/em> and ultimately making me feel all that much less weird.<\/p>\n

Thoughts of mortality earlier gave me some fear of regret<\/a>. I sat on that for a while and sided on it usually being best to communicate than not to. Relationship FOMO<\/a> sometimes makes me want to keep my mouth shut, but then this little voice pops up in my head chastising me in a soft tone with love. The voice reminds me that I’m being honest about how I feel and that is a good thing. In the sort of way that it’s the Right Thing[tm] good. I ponder for a bit about if I’m rationalizing the past<\/a>. Right or wrong, I always feel a lot better when I get something off my chest. It’s good for me, and I hope the people that care about me want that. I’m definitely more at ease now than prior to my letter. I’m not anxiously awaiting a response, I’m smart enough to surmise what it is, and that writing the letter was more to be able to tell myself that I had put forth the effort and it wasn’t going to work out, so I won’t regret not have later. And also to simply say what I felt. Am I repeating myself yet? I’m just thinking out loud at this point. Stupid unintelligible streams of consciousness.<\/p>\n

So that’s done. Uhh, what’s next? Deploying servers in Ireland!<\/a> Oh technology, together we’ll build something beautiful.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

happy new yrs from your long distance crush (wait, crusher?) G! I’m so excited to hear from her tonight, even though I’m about 10 days behind the mail. G was responsible for turning me on to the concept of limerance six months ago, which lead to buying Love and Limerance and ultimately making me feel […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/952"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=952"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/952\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":953,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/952\/revisions\/953"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=952"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=952"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.loftninjas.org\/rants\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=952"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}