Randomly caught Paper Heart today with Mom. It was really great and fit the day perfectly. Must see for members of the big hearts with feelings club.

I’ve only got some mid construction photos of the couch bike that Divide and I build for the DBD. Divide should have some photos from the DB party eventually.

I’m unhappy about sleeping alone lately, which is probably mostly loneliness when I’m sitting still too long. As much as I’ve identified and internalized more emotions, that doesn’t change how I feel, only how I act because of it. I still feel discarded and unwanted and I have to be okay with that. My mind tempts to “keep doing what needs to be done”, but I walk down the stairs and see the old photo of my father, an intentional reminder to not accept life as a treadmill. And I remember that my feelings are natural and perfectly okay. I remind myself that my feelings are good, and that they and my efforts are probably under-appreciated.

I have great fear of the relationship between distance and limerance. Buy me a drink and I’ll share that with you.