So I dealt with missing work Wednesday for Habitat by working 24 hours on Thursday. And I’ll still behind. Fun. Maybe I’ll work some this weekend. I caught up on sleep this morning and I need to eat, but I’m to put a little time into the introspection first.

All talk with J continues to be about relationships. Do we sense a trend? I’ve been thinking for a bit about how December has been stable, and how continuing to articulate those feelings contributes to that. The more I think about one relationship being only a different set of problems than another, the more I’m inclined to trust my feelings and stick to those guns. However, I have this feeling that it isn’t sustainable, but it ultimately comes from a place where I’m considering problems that haven’t happened yet, and ultimately wouldn’t for some time.

Back before I dated M but had feelings for her, I felt like they needed to be kept hidden lest I date someone who would feel jealous of them. Ironic. Now I worry about when I’ll stop having such strong feelings for M, despite never seeing her. Probably a year. What to do until then? There’s no outlet for that really, I’ve tried a lot. Instead, I keep moving along. It’s all stable, but I’m still concerned about something in the back of my mind.