Can I summarize all of one nights thoughts? Not really, too tired. It is a good tired though. So many friends seen tonight. The sweetness of the drunken ones was great and wonderful. Seattle has been good to me.

I talked to K briefly, limited by the loudness of cakearokee, about lunch with Eric. I spoke of the uniqueness of seeing this caring human again after years apart and being grateful for his comments about how I’ve grown.

Scott showed up at the end of the night and asked about how the ladies were. Scott and I have meaningful conversations about that, but I giggle a little about how asking about my love life feels like talking about the weather sometimes. It has been over a month now since K broke up with me. I haven’t dated during that time and I’m not particularly motivated to either. Perhaps it is because we dated for four months, and I had made that willful decision to commit to working on that relationship and seeing where it went. J had made the point that if I was still in love with M there wasn’t room for anyone else. I did commit to trying, and I did try. I told M I wasn’t pessimistic about dating so much as tired. I told Scott tonight that I’ve just been doing other things. M mentioned the virtue of patience, and I guess I’m being patient, because I’m not pessimistic, nor am I indifferent, dating just isn’t a priority for my energy right now. Someone could change that, I’m sure, but I’m without the energy to devote to leading without something to go on.